The life,times, troubles, toils, and tribulations of Raymond.

 
"Can't Sleep"

Jeez, I have been having some real trouble sleeping lately. I don't really think it is because of the ankle, but more it is just because of all of the stuff I have on my mind. This whole ankle braking thing has just been a big mess.

All in all I have just had a lot of time to sit on my butt and think. Think about what I want to do with my life. What things I have that are good, and what things I have that are bad. Am I happy in my job? Can I find a job that will make me more happy? Will that job be able to support me? I am just not sure.

I enjoy my current job to a certain degree. It can be fun, it can be easy, and it can be hard. The management however seems to lack a great level of loyalty or thanks. I can go and work 60 hours in one week, one to have one little thing go wrong and I get chewed out for it. But I guess that is how it goes, no one notices when you do your job well, but one little screw up and it is all over.

I am thinking of moving on. As much as I enjoy EMS and have learned a lot about the industry, I don't think there is much upward mobility for me in this particular company. While working nights has its benefits of less supervision, and more freedom, that means my work is less noticed. So if there was to be a promotion it would most likely go to my daytime counterpart. And now that I have been out of work for almost two weeks, I am probably quite forgotten.

So with that being said I am taking Aerospace class at Mt. Sac. The idea of being an Air Traffic Controller has been in my mind for several years now. Back when I realized radio was going to be a dead end for me, and that management there, was going to continue to screw me, I looked at 3 possible new career choices for me. Air Traffic Controller, Chef, or EMT. I happen to chose the job that paid the least (But also had the cheapest and shortest training period). Air Traffic Control has always been at the back of my mind though. I have loved flying ever since I was a kid. Even today, whenever I fly I am always looking out the window. The job itself pays well, has good benefits, and it is a government job. Also there is a whole generation of controllers looking to retire soon and hiring spots should be opening up. So I am going to take some classes and see how it goes.

And oh yeah, I am having surgery Thursday night. The bastards, making me go all day without eating or drinking.
posted by Raymond at 5:12 AM